Let's Take a Break

that was what you said last night and it stunned me. after all this time, after all those jokes about breaking up (and some real ones too), after all those talk about getting merried, after all those fights and laughs, all those tears and pains and smiles and kisses...
Finally you said it, calmly...
and now i'm speechless....
and waterfall of thought has been running in my head ever since.
though i understand why you want it and i'd be lying if i said i never thought about it, still your confident shakes me. and when i saw your tears, i couldn't help but wondering... Was these tears came from parting or was it what you've been felling but kept hidden from me?
Had I tried hard enough to stop you from leaving last night? or did I just let you go? should i have come with you? would anything i do matter?

sigh.........
we still talked afterwards....
but your voice sounds empty....
and when i said i love you...
you no longer reply....

Cup cake....
i can't stop you, but will you ever come back to me?

Corat-coret

I wrote this sometime ago, combined with some basic retouching. I hope it means something to someone.

Sepenggal Nyanyian Burung Manyar

"...apa perbedaan pahlawan kemerdekaan yang gugur dan soldadu penjajah yang mampus? Jelasnya, bagi yang mati itu? Nama harum, noda nasib? Semua Jendral yang menang disebut pahlawan, semua Jendral yang kalah disebut penjahat perang. Oleh siapa nama harum dan pujaan itu sebetulnya dibutuhkan? Oleh yang mati atau yang menjadi ahli waris atau kelompok yang membutuhkan legitimasi? Pemerkokoh ideologi yang apriori?"

Diambil dari Burung-Burung Manyar karya almarhum Rm. Mangun.